I haven't posted too many things lately because everything moves on and I was actually quite busy. Unfortunately, and how was anyone to know without checking, this crazy space cancer lies in wait to grow faster than imagined, or as fast as usual, depending upon the perspective you hold. I hope that the D/C cycle "takes" again, because I can feel the tumor under my lower left rib. At night and sometimes when I put my attention on it, which seems to be all the time now, I feel a burning sensation which I hope and hope is divine intervention, but I know is tumor. Just suck up that medication!
So living in denial worked beautifully for a long, long time. And denial isn't the right word, because there's always an awareness of, so really it's more of a forbiddance of domination: mind, body, and spirit.
Again, that is the fight right now, so there's not much reading I'm doing to build up strength. I have to stop yoga for 3 weeks, I have one more session, the 2 weeks off with my guide/therapist because.....We are off to the Domnican Republic. This is a very generous gift from, and with, my mother-in-law. Unrelated to my mother-in-law I have what I hope is an ulcer. This has been threatening my peace of mind, on and of, since my colonoscopy waaaaaaay back last March, with no recurrent pain until Christmas, then whammo, crazy pain the week before this excellent trip. Yesterday I thought innocenttly, "I'll try tums". Not too much happened, so I thought. "I'll try pepto-bismol". I won't get too detailed, but there was definitely a build-up of hydro-chloric acid in my system. So today I am trying yogurt and cereal
before my coffee, and maybe 1 cup of coffee. Maybe 2. I really have limited what and the amount that I eat. All before an all inclusive resort!
I plan to call the Dr. on Monday, alert him of the situation and ask for any precautions. He's already gven me antibiotics to take in case anything should happen. What a pill popper I am.
I can already say "I take this medication regularly" in Spanish.
