New pictures

I've posted pictures of my physical transformation through treatment, below. I'm enjoying adding pictures to the blog very much.

Today I have had my nephrostomy tube changed and internalized permanently, and tomorrow they will remove the urine bag collecting urine on my leg because the procedure seems to have worked well and things are lookin' good. Hot showers, swimming, long baths, as soon as the wound heals. I have to say that dignity is one of the major issues I've faced during this process, and each time a little dignity is regained it has been changed for the better in my perception. I see people in my situation, or as in today in the hospital I saw people where I have been, brave and crumpled, stranded in gurneys, and I wish them full of love.
That is now the most beautiful prayer I can ever imagine, as Mike told me he prayed, "God, please fill her with love." Now I give that prayer to others because it means everything to me.
Whoever you are that I'm praying for, that is what I now ask for you.
Also, happily I am finally nearing the end of A Course in Miracles, which has been a fantastic and true course. I feel that this week I really had a whammo moment of understanding, so I'm also happy that I'm not done yet. I want to thank everyone in my beautiful neighbourhood for your gardens and the interesting work you're having done on your homes, as well as for your smiles and sweet, shy cats and dogs. I am posting pictures of some gardens here, and I wish I could fit them in with the text, but I haven't got there yet. Feeling happy tonight!