Got passport photos 2 days ago, Dr.'s appt. yesterday: no options but chemo now (no operation, stem cell, etc.) Many tumors in abdomen, some the size of oranges. radiation would start below my boobs and down to my pubic bone and would fry my organs and small colon. Told Dr. I didn't want a prognosis and he said that they are always difficult to determine in any case.
Bandana is ON the head, folks, and today I will hide out in the back yard, cut the grass, paint the cold frame, alternately rage and pray and cry like a baby. This chemo has seemed to decrease the size of some tumors. All come from the same Space Cancer cells. We can still plan a week long get away to a tropical paradise instead of Germany, or wherever, for "treatments" now. Thus far. This may change. Getting wills ready, but this has been in the works for a while and my whole family has been getting theirs done since no one had any.
I do need to know from girlfriends, if you're reading this site, if I have any more friends withhout knuckles or who for some crazy reason refuse to wear jewellery; what type you do wear; and you must know you're crazy if you don't. But beautiful.
I am almost done 3 Cups of Tea (so, so, so good), almost done ACIM, and have put Eckhart Tolle down for a bit because I need to concentrate better on his writing when I read. My concentration needs help; I went to nuke my coffee yesterday and found the 10% cream had been in the in the microwave over day/night. I promptly blamed Mike for putting it there, and ultimately had to come to the sad realization that it was me and chemo brain.
Time to wake the neighbours with the lawnmower. Quick Honourable mention for a neighbour around the block: There are BEES coming to our garden, thanks to his innovation at raising bees in his backyard! Also, the NEIGHBOUHOOD GARDEN is beautiful right now, as it has been through all of its stages, but it's particularily tall now.
Also, I have put up a small sign on our boulevard directing people where to step when they park there, so that they don't end up sticking their walker in a 2 foot mound of dirt and plants. So far, and this has been almost a week now, not one person has pulled the car forward enough to let the poor passenger out onto stepping stones far away from the mucky hazard. Maybe they think the sign says don't step here?
Days: 6, Parkers: 0. I will keep an on-going score card. And I'm usually home, checking,
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